Monday, December 3, 2007

all here when i am

almost two months. wow, it's been a long time since i've sat down to formulate some thoughts and send them out into blog-world. a lot has happened. too much to try and relate here...but it's at a time like this (after a long neglect of journaling) that i have to stop and just ask, what's the biggest thing i've learned lately. have i grown at all?

see, for me, journaling or blogging or whatever is a way to reflect, meditate, analyze and spit my thoughts back out in a way that allows me to look back and remember circumstances and my response to them...and to life.

so without taking the time to suffer through the process...i just end up coasting.

have you ever been driving on the highway and you start to day-dream or think about something that's going on...and then all of a sudden you kinda wake up and realize...woah! where am i? i remember seeing signs for a mcdonalds and a ramada inn like a second ago...and now i'm in the middle of cornfields?!?!

that's a crazy feeling.

so to look back on the highway i've apparently just passed over with little thought or realization...it saddens me to think how much i've missed out on because i wouldn't take the time to reflect, think and spew out my response to what i'm experiencing. i've heard it said, wherever you are, be there.

lesson learned. (unfortunately, it will likely take multiple offenses for me to truly learn from this mistake)

don't coast.

life's too short. and i certainly don't want to be looking back on it all thinking, man, i wish i just woulda been all there when i was.

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